About

Hi! Welcome to Jodi, Fat or Not!

I decided to start blogging when I realized there was much more to losing weight than just exercising and eating right. There’s a lot of mental struggle in constantly pushing yourself to make healthy choices and it feels a bit like swimming upstream to work against a lifetime of unhealthy habits.

I’ve always been fat. Ever since I can remember, my parents were trying to get me to lose weight. Because of that, I developed an unhealthy relationship with food early on and it lead to a lifetime of binge and secret eating.

I think what is unique about my story is that I never really hated my body. I was always aware that other people had a problem with it, but not me. For the most part, I liked how I looked and I loved food and any dieting attempts (some brief stints with Weight Watchers) were mostly fueled by trying to get my parent’s approval.

Then I went to college. And while I wasn’t under the watchful eye of my parents anymore, the binge and secret eating continued and expanded until anything was an excuse to stuff my face. Whether it was because I was stressed over writing a paper, or celebrating a final exam, it was always accompanied by lots of unhealthy food.

It wasn’t until I graduated and moved out on my own that I really thought about how I was feeding myself. I somehow stumbled upon an amazing community of bloggers who were writing and talking about fat acceptance. I fell in love. Here was a group of fat woman who loved their bodies and ate without guilt! It was revolutionary to me. I learned about concepts such as “health at every size” and really started to understand that food was not a moral issue. There are no good or bad foods despite the thousands of messages aimed toward women telling them otherwise.

It was then that I decided I would never try and diet again. I would love my body and eat what I craved and not feel guilty about it. It worked for a while. I had confidence, I was happy, but I never really felt healthy.

Then I went on a 10-day trip to Israel and the events of that trip changed everything. I was around 240 pounds at the time – my highest weight ever – and I couldn’t keep up with the hiking or tours and I felt judged by everyone else around me. I journaled a lot during those 10 days and thought seriously about the person I was. I was drinking and partying a lot at the time and I didn’t really feel fulfilled

October 2010 at the Dead Sea in Israel. I'm about 240 pounds.

So when I came home I decided to do something about it. Except this time, it was my own decision, and it came from purely a place of love. I wasn’t pressured to lose weight by anything other than my drive to live a different life, full of movement and variety.

October 2010 to November 2011 - about 65 pounds lost!

I went to what I knew: Weight Watchers. I stayed on the plan and lost about 20 pounds and then decided that I really didn’t agree with the company’s philosophy and would rather be paying money on gym memberships and healthy food than the program. So I joined MyFitnessPal and began counting calories. At first it felt odd, but soon I realized that tracking what and how much I was eating is simply another tool of knowledge. I try not obsess over the numbers, as much as one can while still having the goal of weight loss.

So that brings me to now. A lifetime of emotional and binge eating followed by a desire to love my body in the best and most fufilling ways, with healthy food and lots of activity.

Just before I ran my first 5K in November 2011! I'm about 176 pounds.

Below I posted my weight loss tracker because this is, after all, a blog about weight loss. And while I have to admit that seeing my weight drop is a driving force in my journey, I wanted people to know that it is not the only thing that should fuel the desire to get healthy. My story is one of love, happiness and acceptance, and I truly believe it’s those elements – not calorie counting or exercise – that have made all the difference.

Created by MyFitnessPal – Free Calorie Counter

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8 thoughts on “About

  1. Inspiring!! I agree that 1/3 of the weight loss battle is emotional/psychological and blogging to share the journey is such a great way to deal with this. Can’t wait to follow your posts, have a great end of the weekend.

  2. Thanks so much for sharing your story, Jodi! Your philosophy about health and weight loss, as well as your approach to food are truly inspiring.

    I especially love this: “My story is one of love, happiness and acceptance, and I truly believe it’s those elements – not calorie counting or exercise – that have made all the difference. ” <—Truth. 🙂

    I look forward to following you, as you continue on your healthy journey!

  3. Pingback: Step 1: Love « Jodi, fat or not

  4. “So when I came home I decided to do something about it. Except this time, it was my own decision, and it came from purely a place of love. I wasn’t pressured to lose weight by anything other than my drive to live a different life, full of movement and variety.”

    AMEN.

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